| Yay for Crystal! |
[18 Oct 2006|10:03pm] |
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I got to hang out with Crystal and Ritchie and Nick yesterday instead of being the good student and doing homework ><. But seeing those two together was pretty cool, and I know Crystal, in general, is enjoying it very much. He's got a lot to learn about Crystal's nuances, and we both made some boo boos last night..but other than that..It's really worthwhile seeing Crys generally happy. I mean, she's been through tons lately, and this is a good bit of what she needed..at least I think so. I just wish I could hear from Tia and Kaia somehow, I'm probably gonna call them ><.
Anyways, not much to talk about, just hope I survive my bio test!
Wish me luck guys! Oh, Love ya Sis!
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| School, Relationship? And more |
[17 Oct 2006|01:09am] |
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Hey Everyone, it's always pretty rare when I decide to update my LJ now adays..but I felt like I ought to update it here before I tried to update it on DA or something like that, and really, I wanted a chance to discuss something that friends on DA probably wouldn't see..
School is a big deal. I need to be able to devote more time to it, so it may mean telling my friends to chill when I never like to do that..that includes my friend at School, Yvonne ><. Or I could just try to get more sleep now, so I don't have to sleep later..yeah I will try that. Now as far as the relationship stuff is concerned..I'm in a fix. I've been trying to stay under the radar to await the return of my great friend Kaia to PA, permanently, in the hopes that maybe I could ask her out because I really like her. But despite that I still met a great friend and maybe more than a friend in Yvonne. For now, my focus is on seeing if Kaia is up for the idea. But it's tough because I'm probably hurting at least in part Yvonne who's a great friend. The plot thickens though because Yvonne doesn't seem to be as compatible with my friends as I would like. Kaia is a big spash..And to be honest, it's tough to be at a fever-pitch for someone like Kaia, find a surprising connection like Yvonne and just gah..All I know is that when it all does come down to it, I'm still hoping that Kaia will be willing to go on a date with me, if only to learn whether she thinks we'd be a good couple, cause I'm already fairly decided..
I just know that being split between two girls is the story of my romantic life..Heck, I was hoping to date our mutual friend Tia before I realized overall that I liked Kaia as much as I did..but I did try to dedicate myself to Tia and found that a friendship was all she wanted. Likewise, now I have this split and I'm worried if my own indecisiveness won't be the reason that something doesn't happen between me and Kaia..Besides that, she really didn't want me waiting around for her, so who knows if she really still wants to try something between us..I'd hate to be doing all this worrying to find out that she's got her I on someone else...
So as you can see, it's a difficult and probably overcomplicated situation..but with the move being finalized any day now, hopefully its resolution will come soon.
Thanks for reading everyone, Tchao!
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| My Labor Day weekend!! |
[04 Sep 2006|02:03pm] |
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Hey Everyone it's Collin/Phantom/Daiichi all that stuff. I had a great labor day weekend. Crys and Nick Hung out with me for a good bit on Friday, and we watched a lot of anime, some late Naruto eps that of course I'm catching up to, and except for me kinda being a bit of an arsehole and telling Crys that something she was doing was annoying (I apologized rather vigorously throughout the rest of the night ><.) Then after a disasterous Saturday morning, cause Crys and I and her mom couldn't seem to meet up for a long time, causing everyone to lose a lot of their Saturday morning and even a bit of their Saturday Afternoon..I came home with Bro and hung out with my family and bro and our family friend Glen and watched some College Football, though later that night I went to the mall and finally picked up Final Fantasy VII: Dirge of Cerberus. The graphics in that game really make up for the brevity of the story, plus there are extra missions and you can replay everything with the Vincent you ended with level and items and all, so yay!
For those who are interested in Dirge of Cerberus, it talks about Vincent and basically, his major life story. How he became the Vincent Valentine we all know and love. What I love best about the story is that it even goes into a tiny bit more detail about the decision to experiment on Sephiroth, just a tiny bit, though most of the moments in the game are throwbacks from the original. Just having so much about Vincent and Lucrecia and even delving into the lives of some of the villains, it was very very very awesome. Another thing to note is that everyone from the FF7: Advent Children Movie makes an appearance. Cloud, Tifa, Barret, Yuffie, Cid, especially Cid, that was cool, and Red even sneaks in there near the end :). I'm happy to say that all of the original voice actors from the movie reprise their roles. And voice actors for characters like Reno and Denzel fill in some important characters. One of my favorite additions in this game was the added voice talent of Mary Elizabeth McGlynn who plays a key bad person in the game. And let me say it's a treat to visit so many of the old places from the movie and game, with other stages I have yet to unlock. You visit Edge, which is like the city they built outside Midgar in Advent Children, The Shinra Building, and even The Shinra Mansion which is very eerily reproduced with minor changes. So all those who were thinking about getting it, consider it. It's definitely worth it for the FF7 Fan. I'm also happy to say I finally received some proof that a good friend of mine is well, that would be Kaia..and it was really eating at me. Now my biggest worry is whether all my calls nad notes and such will be a nuisance, I think yes ><.
Well I'm gonna chill for a bit longer and then get my homework done so I can chill more! Have a great day everyone! Oh and one last thing about Dirge of Cerberus, while the supposed Cameo by the JRock singer Gackt doesn't seem to happen in the game, he does perform the two major themes of the game, so it is very very nice :).
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| Bleach's English Cast has been mostly secured! |
[26 Jul 2006|02:59pm] |
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Hey Everyone, I know I don't update much, but I thought I'd use this journal as one to announce Bleach's English Cast! For those who want to know more about Bleach, one of the hottest animes I think to ever be coming to America, please visit www.animenewsnetwork for a brief summary and other links, such as Bleach's Official Website. And if you want information on great sites to download Bleach, email me or comment with a way that I can get in contact with you. Anyway, this show is actually probably pretty Naruto-like, except that so far there haven't been any total fillers..Every episode I've seen actually does serve a purpose, and that means its action, action, action from Episode one!
Anyway, here's what I've been Raving about, the Following Voice Actors will have major parts in Bleach!
The main character, Ichigo Kurosaki will be voiced by none other than Trigun's own Johnny Yong Bosch..That's right folks, the man who's been everything from a Black Power Ranger to Kaneda I believe from Akira, to Kiba from the Smash hit Wolf's Rain, and even now is currently enjoying exposure as the lead character Renton Thurston Of Adult Swim's new presentation Eureka 7. Now I don't really know how he'll fit the Japanese Voice Actor much, so I'm a little apprehensive, but he's one of the best, so I know he'll give it his all!
Also playing the main Heroine Rukia Kuchiki, Death god and Ichigo's Partner, Michelle RUFF!! YAY!!! She ought to fall into the character well with her roles in shows like Chobits, as Chii, and others. I can't think of them right now ><..
Another fantastic Voice Actor who's enjoyed some spotlights is Derek Stephen Prince, who's major claim to fame is Love Hina's Keitaro, he'll appear as Ishida Uryuu!
I just reconfirmed after being rather confused, thanks to anime network, that currently Bleach's English Version is scheduled to Air on Cartoon Network's Adult Swim, somewhere in the vicinity of September 9th.
Yay! I look forward to seeing how the show makes its Transition into English!
Collin Out! Tchao everyone!
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| Heya everyone! |
[09 May 2006|02:15pm] |
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Hey, it's Collin! I don't update often, but I thought I would considering that it's summertime and I'm on break! Woooooot! I feel bad though cause My sister doesn't want me moving stuff into her room until she's done moving out, so I haven't invited Crystal over yet like I wanted to..Plus it will be much harder to hang out if I don't have anyway to get Crystal here and back..
I have a message for you Crystal, IF you didn't want to see Silent Hill Before, DO NOT SEE IT NOW! I went and saw it with Molly, and it's all creepy and gory and scary..I may be better now but eh...*shivers* The only problem with seeing the movie is that now I want to play the game..The Story behind it is really really really good..and Sean Bean as the main char's boyfriend kicks butt!! He does Mister Boromir..
I think I'll still call you even though inviting you over wouldn't be a good idea cause i can't even set up my PS2..
Anywho, that is all for me today folks, enjoy your summer!!
Tchao Everyone! Collin
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| Nearly forgetting your sister's and mother's birthdays |
[04 Apr 2006|09:30am] |
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Yeah, that sucks..I agonized over it all evening yesterday...I even flat out told my sister Molly what I'd probably get her as belated birthday gifts cause I want to make sure they're worth it..And it will be thanks to my sister that I even get my mom a bday gift..I'm bumming out cause I told a friend from Otakon she could meet me on my Mom's birthday..I'll probably have to ask them not to visit cause I can't focus on them and then worry about my mom's birthday all at once..
I wish that my sister would be a bit more discreet about her journal, or else clarify who or what is on trial and on her mind..What you don't say we can't hear, and what we can't hear we can't do..It's as simple as that..If you want everyone to go away for a time or a day, all you gotta tell them is "Not Today"..And if you're that considerate of other people why don't you try to plan something in advance and let everyone know ahead of time "I'm taking a day off to chill out today, so I won't be available"..
If you don't want to "be like them" Molly, then asking people to treat you like a trite teenager is not the way to go about it..You'll get what you ask for, so be a bit more self-respecting, and a bit more considerate when you make demands like that..Is it tough, heck yeah it's tough..I know okay..I fought a losing battle for six years and had to lose..I didn't get to come out all glorious and on top like my boyhood dreams or all those movies..You're gonna be doing something about it..You'll be moving, you'll be bridging the gap..It's not an iffy thing..If you want it that bad, to heck with others..that's just the way it has to be..or else you're gonna contradict yourself and none of the things you want will happen simply because you're too afraid to take the ball and score..
When you contradict yourself, you make mistakes, when you make mistakes, you lose respect, you lose self-confidence, you lose so much..I'm sitting here trying to convince MYSELF of the idea that I can truly move forward and find someone else in my life..It'll be a slow painful journey, but if I give it enough effort I'll make it happen.
The only person who can keep you from doing what you want is you..and right now, besides maybe mom and dad..the only people who would prefer you don't go to Iowa are maybe Crystal and such..but you know they support it..You know I support it..so what the heck is the problem..The decision's made..the plans are laid out, it's only a matter of time...I only wish I had that luxury with my last relationship...That's why I waited and tried to make it work for so long..I felt it was only a matter of time..You plan on being in Iowa before my birthday..so say you leave sometime in June..that's a little less than 3 months away..Relaz Molly okay? It's going to happen
Should I be this upset..probably not..but I don't even know what to be upset about except that she could very well have included me in everything she wrote in her journal..You wanna know why I've been spending time with you, because I want to..because I KNOW you're going to Iowa..And i don't personally ever remember saying anything against you going..You wanna know why I haven't gotten out of Chambersburg and Greencastle..Because I like it here..I may not be too comfy staying in our house but I don't have this screaming need to leave it..And whatever "Am I gonna be like them?" means, if you don't want me to talk about my own problems let me know and I can handle it..We and everyone else talk to you because we know you understand. We know you listen..but if you don't want to know for a while, maybe you could say something instead of expecting us to just know.. If you don't want us to talk about that stuff, fine..but don't expect a whole lot else..Cause everyone's busy with their own life right now..
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| Wrestlemania, A concert, D&D, best weekend in a long time |
[03 Apr 2006|11:32am] |
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Oh man, how do you go back to normal life after a weekend like I had? I mean, to start things, the last thing I had to do on Friday was a Calc test and I think I so totally owned it..Then, after some Suikoden V, probably a bit too much for Shane and Crystal's Taste, and Tim's last class, we headed to my house. I didn't think to bring my Yu-Gi-Oh cards, sorry Crystal! And I upset Shane making us late..But the session was great..I leveled up, and so did everyone else..we got to fight for the first time as a group, and I think it is actually a positive for us. Then watching Kingdom Hearts II's opening kicked butt..Thanks Crys and Shane! By the way, I didn't reserve a Limited Edtion, so no trade for me ><..
The only real serious saddening thing about Friday was poor Crys..she was in such a bad way, and we all wanted to try and cheer her up..butI don't think I've ever felt so useless in a long time..I think things I said probably hurt more than helped..Tim and I wish the best for you Crys! Don't forget about Thursday!
Saturday was pretty exhausting, cause I had early practice, but it was really cool because the Rude Mechanicals which is my group, are almost ready for our performance next week..the 12th and the 13th..I'm gonna perform an actual Shakespeare Play..a dream come true! I got to hang out with Cory a little too, and he had some foam weapons..he taught me a little bit of this discipline he's learning himself..it was nice..It was nice to have someone say that with better conditioning I could still be an okay fighter..No matter how much I try to accept that I hsould probably never fight with my condition, I've always wanted the comfort of knowing I could really take care of myself in times of such. So who knows ><..I asked him to make me a staff thingy, so hopefully he can find time for that out of his busy schedule.
Then later that day Molly, Tim and I went to the mall, I got Kingdom Heats II, and I stopped at Flamers cause i hadn't eaten all day..Chicken Tenders and some awwesome Barbeque Sauce..Cheese fries+ and a cheese dog..We also ran into Steve who was interested in going to this year's Otakon..it was nice to see Steve without anyone in my opinion..He was planning on getting his permit, and then eventually his license..then probably a job..so who knows what will be once Otakon comes around.
Then we went to a 2 hour jam with Dresden's band Valse, who were awesome just like the first time I saw them, with another song of their own instead of the cover song which shall remain nameless..I'd describe their band as a Techno-Rock Fusion. Anywho, after them there was a band called The Arctic, and they were so intense it was awesome!!!
Sunday was Awesome primarily just because of Wrestlemania 22, but I'm so upset John Cena actually beat Triple H..made him tap out and submit no less!!
All in all, best weekend in a long time!
Tchao Everyone!
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| OMG an update??? |
[28 Mar 2006|09:36am] |
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Hey everyone..I've been lurking here for a few days now, and I thought I ought to post an entry..School is simply taking the cake as far as stress is concerned, and with only a month almost before I leave Mont Alto forever for another school, I'm absolutely bewildered as to how to handle it..I was coasting through it like normal until I remembered such a truth last night, and now..Dunno what to do..I got to talk to my friend Kelly, here known as ailathehealer..She's writing about a trip she is taking to Japan and then Australia in her LJ..check it out, she's done some amazing stuff already..Soooo jealous!!
I'm really pumped about Suikoden V, it is simply awesome! Probably the best game of the series since Suikoden II..now 1 is my favorite, but II is the most comparable in my opinion which is not a problem for me at all..I've been hoping for it since I knew it was coming and it's lived up to those expectations and more..I'm constantly looking for new forms of entertainment and since I've been a Magic player (Magic the Gathering) I felt it would be awesome to have a Yu-Gi-Oh card deck, so my friends Shane and Karisutalu-chan (Crystal-chan) helped me put it together going to the mall with me and such..They had their own videogame business, picking up the second FMA videogame and finishing the reserve on Shane's copy of KH II...It comes out tomorrow Oh joy!! I picked up Chrono Crusade Vol 1 from Home and also Suikoden IV..which I plan on playing next..
I also have a bunch of Gundam that my friend Corey Houpt gave me to watch so that I can be on track with all the Gundams past 0079! Everything up to GundamW..I've got so much to entertain me and yet the best part of my day is chatting with friends online..I have one friend, Miss Becka Wieskind, who is actually planning to come visit me in a couple of weekends..She and I met at Artists' Alley at Otakon 'O5..So I'm really pumped..
Also, Molly had a DM session last weekend on Friday and it was a hoot!! Shane and Crystal, know that Tim had a heckuva time with you Friday, really enjoyed your company..And he does indeed regret I had not told him earlier of your problems with Cursing and the like..I'm sure he will keep it under control next session!
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| A song I wrote tonight |
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My sister Molly and I had a discussion about how much I tend to worry, and how it seems to be worrying and stressing out the people who really care for me..So I finally tried to sit down and write out my feelings about whta it's like for me to go through this stuff over and over again in a song, and I like it very much..I hope you enjoy it to my friends..
Tchao Everyone!
When your strength
May be your weakness
How can one bear witness
To an unwanted change?
Your soul comes up a Lemon
When emotional fitness
Can't pass through the litmus
of a broken heart
and that's just where it starts...
Chorus
Imagining it's happening
Like a weatherman marks out a storm
Your feelings are fastening
to a future which hasn't been formed
When your length becomes your width
It is impossible to be sure
Were you bent, or were you broken before?
The pieces reassemble o'er a faulty base
When your logic turns to anarchy
The truth seems more sarcastic
And your morals are elastic
Testing only plastic figures
While you may remark, "It figures"
Chorus
The Harkening is deafening
You are Everyman restored
Your end is now hastening
A death leaving much desired
Can a Phoenix be construed from ashes
And your youthful hopes restored
Or will your flame burn from the fuel reformed?
Can this composite function? Rest assured
Chorus 1
Chorus 2
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| Happier Entry? |
[28 Feb 2005|10:34am] |
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I certainly hope so! The snow is just beginning here at Mont Alto, and when I say just beginning, I mean we shouldn't even really have snow yet, but the real light stuff is coming down, and noteworthy flurries are falling. These are some of the smallest snowflakes I've ever seen.. I got through my first class ok, and I've had a little bit of time to absorb the stresses of this morning, but I'm still in a kind of stasis. I want to be happy, because you spend enough time stuck on something, those who care about you tend to care less and less each time, not because they don't love you, but because it seems to be more of a conscious decision to be sad and less of a true problem. So I'm trying to consciously choose to be happy so I can improve and feel better. It's one of my own doctrines that one has to decide they want to feel better before they can, ahhhh..Here we go, looks like the flurries are coming down with a bit more force now.it's starting to turn into a real blast out there.
I wanna thank Crystal, Molly, Katie and James, and all others involved in activities over the last week for giving me for the most part a chance to be silly..Frusrations over losing a wallet turned into a bad comedy act, and it's been a long time since I've been to Tops Buffet, a place Dan and I frequented, add to that a Molly and Crystal and Katie and James, and it turned out to be a heck of a time. Special mention goes to James for finishing the second Harry Potter movie which, while he certainly didn't seem too impressed, and was rather against the series, watching it and giving it a fair shot was pretty awesome of him.
This day is going to get better, because I'm not going to let it get any worse..if I keep up at the rate I'm going, I'll definitely have some serious stress related problems, so it's important to keep happy and try to look toward the future again.
In other news, I really want to get Meteora, Crystal listens to it a lot and it makes me jealous :)!! Spring break is coming, but it can only come one day at a time, so I'll just have to tough it out!
Tchao everyone!
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| I need this coming snow day!! |
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It has yet materialized, but I need this coming snow day, to catch up on Homework, and to prepare myself indeed an equal ground again for the Spring Break which is almost here. Why you ask? I'll tell you
I tried hard to get reading done last night, but I found that I absolutely needed sleep, and I apparently slept until about 3:47..a good 3 hours and 30 minutes..Not bad, but shortly after that I fairly believe I was seized by a near panic attack, seeing as I was going to be nowhere near ready for any of my classes this morning, and I was finding myself once again pre-occupied by the failure of Spring Break to bring Tobia and I together, bothered by some words a friend of mine had said when I shortly brought up and ended a conversation on the fact that I was still dating the same girl as always. Seeing her some sunday morning, and seeing her feel as if she had ruined it in her own right, and knowing my crusades and discussions with my family and siblings, etc. I strongly began to feel that I would be the sole proprietor of the end of our relationship, on virtue that she hadn't begun to feel she had ruined things until I began to give her the idea in a conversation she doesn't even remember having, because it had been during a sleepy awakening which she doubts she was awake at all..She had to work and so we had resolved to talk later sunday night, which I do believe I missed because I was hanging with friends quite rightly, and I was hoping to cheer her up and have her look toward Summer, while seriously laying out, as I should, my grievances just like I had to everyone else..The ideas that I had been bothered with lately all hit me at once, and at one point I believe I was on the verge of a heart-attack, whether that's true or not is most certainly debatable..But I begin to imagine all kinds of scenarios and my mind has been so imaginative to hear things that haven't happeend, dream things that never were, things of that nature..It isn't as bad as I make it out to be I'm sure, but I know I was quite at my wit's end tonight, and now I have to face a day where so far I am ill-prepared, and so, I have been fighting feelings of failure as a friend, feelings of failure as a boyfriend, and now, my inadequacy as a student..Fun fun..
I'll most certainly update later when I'm hopefully in a much more cheery mood.
Tchao everyone.
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| Human For Sale.com and some good news |
[25 Feb 2005|11:26am] |
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I am worth $1,775,854.00 on HumanForSale.com
Yay! Not counting my handicap, that's a lot of money!!!!!!!!!!! Plus, I had to lie about my college stuff cause i haven't gotten my degree yet!
But the good news, ahh yes the good news, I'm on the road to being happy again thanks to getting to chat with my gf a bit last night on the phone, even though she wasn't online like she promised, she's sick!!!
Plus, I'm gonna spend some time with Tim and Doug and that should be some needed gooood times!
So to all those concerned, I'm doing better than Wednesday!
Tchao everyone!!
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| Just as dead as ever? |
[24 Feb 2005|12:21pm] |
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I'll admit I haven't been back really but a few days..But I know I've got friends who have me in their list who are very active, and do a lot of reading of journals, at least, so I think. It's kind of upsetting not to get any welcome back comments, or just something, what's the use of a livejournal of you don't know anyone's reading it?
Besides that, this journal isn't going to be a happy one. It's silly of me, but I feel useless right now. I'm running low on funds, so I have to try to slow down my pace a little bit..Not so many dinners, not so many gifts, and that makes me sad, because these days nothing makes me feel better than giving stuff to others. It's something I've wanted to be able to do for a long time, and I know that that at least is appreciated.
I feel like I'm pushing myself on other people, asking them all to do something, my own sister has been doing most of the driving around because of ti, and I am sure she doesn't want to be driving around so much, even if it's doing stuff with friends.
And if Dan were here I'm sure we could have a heck of a Spring Break, watching and renting anime, or videogames. Or board games, going out to Tops, seeing movies, listening to all kinds of anime music. I would be talking to him about what I thought of Moonchild. And well, Tobia was supposed to come around for Spring Break. It was gonna be the break of a lifetime I was waiting for, we were gonna have all break to do all the things we'd ever dreamed of and spend some time with each other, and all the friends and family and everything. I just can't believe it's not gonna happen. It seemed so sure for so long, and I was so excited, and now, I'm working so hard to try one last ditch effort and I cant' even get ahold of her. Someone if it isn't her or not I don't know, keeps getting on her Aim and I try to find out if it's her but no one answers, and I don't know what to think.
Everything was supposed to go right this time! Everything was supposed to go right! I needed it to..This was gonna be mybig thing..This was going to be MY SPRING BREAK! I was gonna try to do something special with my special somebody..And not feel like some horrible boyfriend who can't seem to visit with his GF..I was gonna reassure her that everything was gonna be fine and we'd start to see each other more often and that this time we'd make it work, and I find myself wondering if I'm even sure of that anymore. All I want right now is to talk to her about it, because she always finds a way to make me feel better, but I can't even seem to get that chance. If this relationshjip fails becaus of distance I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself. It's the one thing that I promised myself and Tobia that would never break this up..And it would just so totally tear me up because I really feel that I love her, and that we could be a great couple! But then I'd be completely on my own, I've never been on anything close to a real date except for that half date with Crystal for prom, and it was more of a friendship thing and a promise kept than a date, though I did enjoy most of it. And then there was the formal ball that I went to with Stephanie, and despite some silly problems, that was a really good dance..I don't know if you call it a date, but she asked me to go and I went, and I think that qualifies..Course I had always wanted to go to a dance with her to begin with..I had to decline the first two cause I was going to my own. And I just thought it would be wonderful to go out and enjoy myself and have a good time, I didn't do anything terrible there, no kisses or anything like that. I just had a great time.
*sighs* I just finished promising Tobia that I'd do my best to make things work out, and that I'd commit to this or bust..And I don't wantto back out on that promise yet, but..I've been trying to tell myself that if I break with her once more, it should be all..I should think of it as the final straw..And I don't want to give this up..But I need her to be here.
I need her to be here, and right now she's not..What else can I do?
Tchao everyone
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| The update I promised..Hours ago |
[23 Feb 2005|10:13pm] |
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Hewwo everyone!! Since last I was updating I was a younger man, but I'd like to think I've stayed mainly the same. Sure I got me a silly moustache and a really patchy beard, both of which will someday soon be gone, but at heart, I would like to think I've been able to keep to the same core values that I was proud of even then.
I am happy to report that Spring Break will soon be here for me, and I'll tell you, I need it. I'm really slacking off these last few weeks and I'm trying to get into the swing of it all again before it's break time. I'm unhappy to report that it is seeming more and more likely that Tobia and I won't be meeting this break, and it's really starting to become frustrating for me because whenever I feel like I've got everything worked out something goes wrong..when I solve one big problem, another one comes up..I don't know how many more times we can try and fail before I might have to talk to Tobia about ending it on virtue that we can't ever meet..I'd like that to never happen, and meh..I just don't want to think about it, because it will make me eager to do something about it, and lately, the only solution has been to leave her..And that's not a very good solution..I love this girl too much, and we've stuck together soo long, to have to end it like THAT..
School's a bum, but it's going along all right..I've gotta shape up a little in some classes, but I feel like I'll manage just fine..
I know it's not much of an entry but I have work to do.
I'll catch you guys on the Flipside
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| "Alive!" Journal |
[23 Feb 2005|08:33am] |
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It's been a long time since I rock and rolled..I gotta get back gotta get back gotta get back..It's been a long time since I rock and rolled, It's been a long time...Been a long lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely time!
My bad version of some Led Zepplin Lyrics, hoorah for the Zep!
This is my "Alive!" Journal, to let everyone know that I'm still living and breathing, and I've got some friends to check up on, and some guts to spill, and I can do it here and there. Much thanks to eusamie and mer_child for getting me back on the ticket!
I'll post in-between classes this morning
Tchao everybody!
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| Crystal.. |
[09 Aug 2003|04:05am] |
I'm going to make a pointed effort to let everyone in LJ know that this entry is dedicated to a fantastic friend of mine named Crystal..She'll know who she is..And hopefully, she won't be blind enough to know that this poem is written about her, from my eyes..As they see her..and as they hope and yearn for her happiness..The world hasn't yet shown it's true beauty to Crystal..but may she continue to be strong..And may she be happy with this poem..
Crystal
You who are so deserving of thy name
Who in this rough world, seems about the same,
As that which scientists, fashions, hold dear
Such a precious thing, to have you here
Priceless and weathered by the sands of time
To see such perfection scratched is a crime
To be wrapped around the neck of beauty
This is your dream, as it should truly be
Your love is true, makes one beautiful
Your love torn apart, shows one terrible
Despair not, fairest jewel of the Earth
For that which was truest, upon your birth
Was love, sweet love, will it always be true
When heaven and Earth become one for you.
Crystal..Love has many forms..And I will always love you..Brother to Sister, friend to friend, soul to soul..whichever you deem best..
Tchao everyone..
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| So called Genius.. |
[22 Jul 2003|02:12am] |
Being a boy of many talents which include: Seeing the best in everyone, being completely defenseless..And just barely "in" with my sister's cool crowd, at least by my opinion doesn't exactly make me famous, but it may be as close as I get..I mean let's face it, I'm a man of many words, but few brilliant ideas. Every song I write has pop plastered in its making..But what can you do when you're raised on tv that spends its time praising your current superstars..You've got to be among them some day..As of right now I have yet to truly prove an academic excellence, and find the type of lyrical depth that I feel I find in my poetry..My IQ was supposedly 132..Being that someone near the range of 140 and over is a certified genius, I guess someone of my calibur can be considered a "So-Called Genius."
In other news, I decided to explore my sister's musical treasure trove and found that Elvis Costello and the Attractions really were fantastic...And to my happiness, JEW's album Clarity really is ground-breaking..I'm upset about it only because I wonder if I really feel it's ground-breaking or I think that way because I love Bleed American..
Could I ever be a Rockstar? Could I even be a one hit wonder? I sure hope so..
Arrevaderci, I can't spell italian. Ciao!
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| Song number 4 |
[23 Jun 2003|12:43pm] |
It's another song that I'm putting on LJ. Keeping my promise as always to put songs here first. I've been in such a creative mood lately, songs just pop up and I write them while I can..The more songs I write, the better the probability of me coming up with a goldmine. So this one's for the band! And I don't mean my band, I mean the jazz band
When I hear the horns blow
I'm ready to pop
Let me hear the trombone
I just will not stop
It makes me wanna be a boogie boy
It's sweet as milk and cookies boy,
It really makes me wanna shout!
Chorus
Well I'm breaking out (I'm breaking out)
Freein' my soul from jail
When it just can't get out
Brass music never fails!
Hear the cymbals crash like a thounderclap
Drummer bangs those drums, he's ready to snap
And oh baby after all of that
The singer starts out a soulful scat
A doot en dweebah bop bowdabow bow (repeat)
scoodily bop wah wah wah ya-oh (repeat)
Chorus
Now we're breaking out! (We're breaking out)
Freein' our souls from jail
When we just can't get out
That tuba never fails!
Chorus 1
We're breaking out!
We're breaking out!
We're breaking out!
We're breaking out!
Doobie bop, a scoobie bop, a dubah duwahhhh!!!
Lyrics and title by Collin Ellis Craig 2003
Seeya cool cats!
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| Move Over Atlas |
[17 Jun 2003|02:06pm] |
I've written another song, and I'm pretty proud of this one! Another one of those cute pop hits I think. Anyways here it is.
Move Over Atlas
By Collin Craig
This wayward world is neoclassical
Men have to be something that's mythical
We've had to push some giant rolling boulders
With the weight of the world on our shoulders
Chorus
So move on over Atlas
Think you're the only titan?
For me that job is weightless
With the strong man that I've been.
We have to rightly worship goddesses
While the world around us rolls right along
Scramble, strain, to give our sacrifices
When the world only makes us commit wrong
Chorus
So just suck it up Juno
Think you're the one that rules us
Uh, uh, girl, I don't think so
She's my queen of Olympus
Verse 1
Chorus 1
Chorus 2
So Tchao
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| Finally! Sweet relief! |
[12 Jun 2003|10:37pm] |
After what seems like a month, or near it what I'd been waiting, and waiting, and waiting for..Finally happened! Did I get a job? No..Did I graduate, well yeah, but that's not it..Did my girlfriend say she was coming to see me? Getting warmer..Ok, what's got me so excited?? I actually saw my gf online tonight! She came on! She had told me earlier she was going to call, so I stayed around all day, but she didn't call she showed up online..You know what though, I didn't care she didn't call..That was the sweetest return in goodness knows how long..
The story behind such a remarkle small feat is as follows..3 weeks before graduation I talked to her once.. Then for that week I didn't see her..Then I found out to my relief that she was taking a vacation from home to spend some time to herself in the trees..Thank goodness..So she's out there two weeks and I find out that she's coming home the week of graduation..but we aren't able to meet from the middle of the week to the weekend..all through wednesday nothing..Nearly a whole month or about it, without seeing her..Then this morning she says she plans to call..And then at about 7 something she comes on..I gotta tell you I was and still am, on cloud nine. All I can say is thank goodness.
Tchao!
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